I'm not sure where it came from but for the last few days i have had the opening bass line from Nirvana's 'Come As You Are' running through my head. As with most ear worms, i find actually digging out the song and listening to it is the best way to remedy the constant repeats inside your mind so that's what i did and as Krist Novoselic did his thing, i found myself looking through the inside of the album cover and at the picture of the three young men but especially the blonde haired figure in the middle flipping the finger to the camera.
Only 27 when he died, i began to wonder just what Kobain would be doing today if he hadn't taken that self-imposed exit that April morning in 1994.
Looking at what he left behind, Nevermind was Nirvana's highspot, what followed never lived up to that first album so they may have just faded away as the 90s rolled on and we would be suffering today through a lacklustre Nirvana reunion tour like Guns n Roses or they may have continued making album after album of sub standard pap like U2 or The Rolling Stones.
They could easily have sold out and be on our television screens hawking beer like Lemmy from motorhead or flogging car insurance like Iggy Pop.
In my mind, Cobain will always be the shaggy haired blonde dude in the out of shape cardigan, belting out those fast-slow-loud-quiet songs that epitomised the Grunge sound.
I can’t imagine him being 45 and can't believe Nevermind was over 20 years ago and its probably very selfish that there is a side of me that is content that he will be forever that brash, angry, handsome 27 year old sticking up a finger to the camera and not a balding, overweight, washed up has been living on former glories.